What were you?

We all have been unsure at some point about how we feel about someone. So here is a love poem that tries to capture the various shades of perplexity one’s heart goes through.

Background: There are a few things that remain unspoken of usually because the adult heart, which has experienced enough suffering does not want to plunge in too soon.  The adult heart chooses to be secure and sure. Most people choose not to express their feelings of affection for the same reason,  not just because they fear rejection but because they do not trust their heart and the games it plays. 

In her conversation with Cooper, Dr. Brand in the movie Interstellar has explained this sensation of feeling affectionate towards somebody quite optimally. She says: ‘it means something we can’t…yet understand. Maybe it’s some evidence, some artifact of a higher dimension that we can’t consciously perceive. I’m drawn across the universe to someone I haven’t seen in a decade… Who I know is probably dead. Love is the one thing we’re capable of perceiving that transcends dimensions of time and space’.

The following poem that was penned down in the summer of 2012 in a college classroom, gazing outside the window into nothingness, tries to articulate what remained to be largely unsaid but not un-felt during that time.   

Are you a storm?
That hits me with a force
Are you the wind?
that sings me a song
or a breeze from the ocean
So subtle against me
Or you are the air
Essential to breathe?

Are you the universe?
The big and the vast
Are you a star?
so pretty but so far
Or a void so magnetic
That pulls me inside
Or you are the sky
That will always walk with me.

Are you a drug?
a lust and a craving
Are you a habit?
I wake to each morning
Or a passing madness
That shall die eventually
Or you are a need
Essential to the being

What you are
What you are not
There is no right
Neither there is a wrong
Be my air, my sky and my song,
Maybe this is where it all belongs.

The End.

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